Everything in my life is so fucked up.

For the love of god. Can I not catch a fucking break? My life is ruined because of bullshit bad luck. All happening on the one night that mattered most. Prom 2012. The worst part is I wasn’t even doing anything wrong to start with. Wrong place wrong time and now I’m beyond screwed for life. I obviously don’t deserve to be happy. Maybe this is gods way of telling me I don’t deserve shit.

I’m done.

Wasted time and payed attention to the wrong things, now ending up in the wrong place sucks. But there’s a solution… I’m so motivated to get things back on the right track and feel better about myself. Got a month to get back in shape and my body backk Going hard AF. Doing Whatever it takes.

Fuck.
Not worth it at all. Amazing spring break had to end with the end of my life.
Is this is going to take everything away from me? Everything I’ve worked so hard for, everything I strive to achieve in the future… Is it all gone? All of this uncertainty is killing me. I need to figure a way to get out of this and move forward in the right path. This is the stupidest shit I have ever experienced and just when it was all going so well.

Right when things are going perfectly with my life and family, a traumatizing event has to come in and bring hell. I feel so stupid and it could jar been prevented but whatever I’ll deal with it and things will turn out fine as always.

I’m going to make my parents proud from now on this is seriously bullshit that I shouldn’t have to deal with.
College is so close and life hasn’t even begun for us so why come this close to fucking everything up?
Ruining parents, family, college, career, future, life, happiness…. Seriously?
This is the end of this bullshit Im ready for a new new beginning

Haha never thought I would say this at this point in time. But I miss the way you liked me and treated me. You really did make me feel special and I loved the way you tried so hard to be with me. I loved being loved, now im just Looking through old old texts and pondering… its weird how things change so dramatically.

Milk and cereal, milk and cereal, milk and cereal, cereal and milk ;)